I'm becky.
I'm 19
I'm shy
I'm extremely short.
I live in Scotland.
and I'm awkward as fuck.


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The darkness is leaking from the cracks.
I cannot contain it. I cannot contain my life.
Sylvia Plath, “Three Women,” from The Collected Poems (via lifeinpoetry)

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I really don’t know what to do anymore. I have been trying so fucking hard to get better recently but I’m still fucking miserable. I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t want to exist anymore. I don’t even have a right to be sad. y friends are going through so much more shit than me and I can’t even be there for them. 

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prisonofself:

You always wondered why
I lingered in the snow
I gave up being a human being a long time ago
And just because you can see me now
Does not mean that I am not already a ghost

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freedomforwhales:


What is Dolphin Assisted Therapy?
Dolphin Assisted Therapy, or DAT, is an increasingly popular Animal Assisted Therapy made available through a growing number of programmes around the world and marketed as offering a cure or respite from human illness or disability.
Is DAT Safe?
Dolphins are wild animals and unpredictable, even when well-trained. People have suffered bites, bruises, scratches, abrasions and broken bones as a result of swimming with dolphins. Dolphins are large, strong animals and entering the water with them can present a risk to human health and safety. Disease transmission is a serious concern, as dolphins can carry diseases that can be transmittable to humans.
Does DAT Work?
Proponents of DAT have claimed it can be used to treat a whole range of physical and psychological conditions. But two independent reviews by senior Emory University scholars demonstrate that there is no proven scientific validity to DAT.

Despite DAT’s extensive promotion to the general public, the evidence that it produces enduring improvements in the core symptoms of any psychological disorder is nil” (Marino and Lilienfeld 2007).

They recommend that “Both practitioners of DAT and parents who are considering DAT for their children should be made aware that this treatment has yet to be subject to an adequate empirical test” (Marino & Lilienfeld 1998).
Is DAT Ethical for the Dolphins?
Dolphins are charismatic animals. Their obvious exuberance and apparent ‘playfulness’ evoke in us feelings of friendship and empathy. But DAT is not a service concerned with the welfare of dolphins! Methods used to capture and transport dolphins can be shockingly cruel and many dolphins die as a result. In captivity, dolphins have a lower survival rate than in the wild. The stress of their confinement prevents them from behaving normally – hunting, breeding, socialising, resting – often making them ill and resulting in premature death.
Please spread the word and denounce Dolphin Assisted Therapy. This practice is a hoax to draw in vulnerable families with special needs children, and does not actually yield any special results. Not only this, but this practice is inherently cruel to the dolphins. Please boycott all swim with and Dolphin therapy facilities.

freedomforwhales:

What is Dolphin Assisted Therapy?

Dolphin Assisted Therapy, or DAT, is an increasingly popular Animal Assisted Therapy made available through a growing number of programmes around the world and marketed as offering a cure or respite from human illness or disability.

Is DAT Safe?

Dolphins are wild animals and unpredictable, even when well-trained. People have suffered bites, bruises, scratches, abrasions and broken bones as a result of swimming with dolphins. Dolphins are large, strong animals and entering the water with them can present a risk to human health and safety. Disease transmission is a serious concern, as dolphins can carry diseases that can be transmittable to humans.

Does DAT Work?

Proponents of DAT have claimed it can be used to treat a whole range of physical and psychological conditions. But two independent reviews by senior Emory University scholars demonstrate that there is no proven scientific validity to DAT.

Despite DAT’s extensive promotion to the general public, the evidence that it produces enduring improvements in the core symptoms of any psychological disorder is nil” (Marino and Lilienfeld 2007).

They recommend that “Both practitioners of DAT and parents who are considering DAT for their children should be made aware that this treatment has yet to be subject to an adequate empirical test” (Marino & Lilienfeld 1998).

Is DAT Ethical for the Dolphins?

Dolphins are charismatic animals. Their obvious exuberance and apparent ‘playfulness’ evoke in us feelings of friendship and empathy. But DAT is not a service concerned with the welfare of dolphins! Methods used to capture and transport dolphins can be shockingly cruel and many dolphins die as a result. In captivity, dolphins have a lower survival rate than in the wild. The stress of their confinement prevents them from behaving normally – hunting, breeding, socialising, resting – often making them ill and resulting in premature death.

Please spread the word and denounce Dolphin Assisted Therapy. This practice is a hoax to draw in vulnerable families with special needs children, and does not actually yield any special results. Not only this, but this practice is inherently cruel to the dolphins. Please boycott all swim with and Dolphin therapy facilities.

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😍😍😍😭😍😭😍😭😍

AHHHHH YAY KITTY!!!

(Excuse me while I CRY BECAUSE CUTE AND UPLIFTING).

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Know this: in some way you’re already dead. Jorge Luis Borges, from To The One Who Is Reading Me  (via rabbittongue)

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"What if I were smiling and running into your arms? Would you see then what I see now?"

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My only relief is to sleep. When I’m sleeping, I’m not sad, I’m not angry, I’m not lonely, I’m nothing. Jillian Medoff (via brosetta-stone)

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1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.

4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.
Sixteen Small Steps to Happiness    (via desertblooms)

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crystalmethalicious:

I don’t think people realise how hard it is to re-discover the person you were before depression or even try to remember your own personality

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It’s crazy how you can go from being so fucking close with someone to not knowing how the fuck to even make conversation with them anymore. 

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kwills88:

I have like the weirdest boner right now.

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